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Fall 2oo5. Acrylic
Fall 2oo5. Acrylic
As an artist I often find myself boiling up inside with frustration and creativity. There are times when I can't get it out fast enough. Times when the creativity is so strong that I can't even begin to draw, write, paint...
...can't do anything to release.
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my brain. fix it.
the thoughts won't stop.
voices in my head.
no.
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my brain. fix it.
the thoughts won't stop.
voices in my head.
no.
they aren't voices. they are thoughts. plans. ideas. blueprints and memos. not stopping. they are designing. building and painting. millions of thoughts. millions of projects. they could break this room down to it's individual pieces and using only these parts and those bits. some of that. build. they could build. organize. organize. efficiancy. must always be problem solving. make something. anything. 15 inches to outside. how could that be modified. be smaller. tidier. in order. how could it become open. easier on the eyes. better access. bigger. stay closed. this over there. that goes.
yeah. ok. now this here and that there. no. there. ok. now that over. bring this in. and that's gotta. nope. that's gotta go there. perfect.for now. 5 foot 8 inches. four shelves. mind races. can't sleep could build something. but what. one foot square. too many ideas. where do i start. my closet. a painting. finances. i could build otown her desk or finish reading. maybe i could get my life together. bills in one column. earnings in another. no. boxes. day to day spending on the left. plans to make a career on the bottom. no. flip chart style. white boards and erasable markers. sticky note.
in my head. it still hurts. if i sleep good tonight it will make sense tomarrow. it'll work. it'll be easy. cause i've already figured it out. if i'm rested i'll be able to do it. four stitches. double threaded. doors reversed. top swings up. bar out. shelf above. two lights. adjustable. seven. your not paying attention. good. i'll do more thinking. thoughts of things i'm gonna do for people. i don't want to talk. i wanna listen. with my headphones on.
